HALLELUJAH!!!

Anyone who has seen me in oh...the past 5 or so years knows that I am not my same high school slim self. Funny now to think that I was unhappy with my "fat" roll back then which was really no more than a small fold of skin that showed only when I sat down and slumped forward. I have seriously always hated excersize. I used to enjoy dancing, but after watching myself on home video I decided to retire that real quick! My excersize has been chasing small children, carrying large loads, and the occasional mini hike with the Hubby. When I was pregnant with Madison my blood pressure was elevated and they ended up inducing me 2 weeks early. Since then, my blood pressure has maintained it's higher than average numbers and I feel pretty BLAH all the time. But good news folks...I've met someone new! I joined a fabulous gym. I'm not gonna lie though...the main incentive was the very reasonable priced childcare, and the fact that I can have a break from my kids whenever I need one and know that they are in good hands in the meantime. For the past 6 weeks, I have been working out 3-5 days a week for 1-2 hours each time. I hired myself a personal trainer and have been learning how to really push myself to my limits. I feel so good about myself and it's been FOREVER since I've been able to say that.

Last week, there was a woman on the treadmill in front of me who was doing pretty much the same interval workout that I do. When she set the incline at 15 and started doing her sidesteps and walking backwards, you could tell it was getting hard and I could see her mouthing things to herself like "You got this. You can do this. Ten more seconds. Push! You rock". It was then that I realized what I must look like to others. I do that exact same thing. I get so in my little "zone" that I forget what others are seeing. I am just waiting for the day that I start singing to my MP3 player outloud for all to enjoy. :)

So, I'm hoping that I have a big weight loss story to tell over the next few months, but for now I have lost 10 pounds and after having my blood pressure taken at the Dr. last week it has changed from 3 years of staying at about 132/89 to 112/72! HALLELUJAH!!!

I really have met someone new. I am finding a new determination and zeal for life that has been absent. I believe in myself, and best of all.....I feel so much better! I still have quite a bit of weight to lose, but knowing that I'm moving in the right direction now changes everything.